Neptune Retrograde – Remembering The Source Of All There Is

Neptune is our connection to the web of life, the sacred script of our existence. Neptune is the ‘space in between’, all that cannot be seen, or defined.

Probably the most mysterious and misunderstood planet of our solar system, Neptune rules Pisces, the last sign of the zodiac, acting like the ‘final frontier’ of our existence, the place where everything merges into oneness, the Source where we all emerged from and where we will all return to.

The experiences of ego dissolving and the yearning to be ‘one with’ the cosmic ocean of completeness are what we call ‘Neptunian’ experiences.


Neptune’s station retrograde on June 16 is an invitation to find this space of ‘oneness’ inside, as opposed to chasing for it in the outside world. The inner world becomes now the fertile soil of imagination, the place where everything becomes possible. During Neptune stations, we feel that God, the source of all there is, is on our side. The ocean, the sky, the mountains, each plant, each animal, everything is God manifesting and coming into being from that place of completeness, of perfection.

The message of Neptune is that there is a unity beyond the egos, bodies, and that separation is only an illusion. This reality of ultimate unity cannot be explained with our limited processes of the mind, it has to be experienced. We cannot “prove” Neptune.

But Neptune is also associated with illusion, delusion, and deception. The paradox of Neptune is that, when we start to believe too much in this perfection, in this unity, we lose ourselves, we are left without any reference point, we have no more home to come back to. When we realize we have ‘lost ourselves’ the tendency is to prolong our stay in this space of oneness by using drugs, alcohol, and other artificial mediators.

Like with every spell, Neptune magic does not last forever. Neptune retrograde is a reminder that you can dive into the Neptunian divine waters as many times you want to connect with that space, as long as you don’t forget to take your diving gear with you.

Psychologically, Neptune is described by our drive to return to the womb. In this way, Neptune acts in opposition to Pluto, who wants to preserve the matter, and sustain life as we know it. Because of these opposite drives, we humans want to live, create, leave our mark, reproduce, in order to honor our purpose as outlined by Pluto, however no matter what we do, the longing to return to the Source, to find again the paradise we have lost when we came into existence, is always there to haunt us.

I experienced Neptune strongly during a hypnosis session few years ago. The hypnotherapist had his natal Neptune conjunct my natal Mercury to the minute.

During the session I envisioned myself in my mother’s womb. From there I plunged directly into the deep waters of the ocean, where I experienced the fury of the water and had to fight with sea monsters. Soon after, I drifted into a space where I would float effortlessly. My heart and the heart of the Universe were beating as one. I felt one with the universe, there was no distinction between me and anything else. There was no separation.

When Neptune is active the sky like it is now, or when we have Neptune transits to personal planets or angles, we feel an urge to unite with something vaster than the self, to lose the boundaries of our small egos and merge with something larger. Our instinct for preservation dissolves and we let ourselves dive into the unknown, without any fear.

‘I never walked near the edge

Used to fear falling

I never swam far from shore

Never tried the secret door

But when you five me love

When you give me love

I have no fear of heights,

No fear of the deep blue sea,

Although it could drown me,

I know it could drown me’

Katie Melua / No fear of heights

The recent Neptune / Saturn square has showed us what happens when we fail to distinguish the dream (Neptune) from reality (Saturn). The square has brought us the crisis of immigration in Europe and the crisis of “fake news” all over the world, proliferated especially through social media.

Things gotten out of context and posted on Social Media have become viral. We don’t know any more if what we share on Social Media or what we see on TV is the reality. Fake news also bring very important questions: What is a fact? What is reality? Is perception the same thing with reality? Where do we cross the line?

The dystopian world described in the book 1984 gives very good examples of the shadow sides of Neptune. In the book, the so-called Ministry of Truth is in fact a propaganda machine. The word used is a misnomer because in reality the Ministry of Truth is responsible for the opposite, to falsify the historical events that do not serve Big Brother’s agenda.

With Neptune, it is very important to distinguish between awareness and deception. Neptune tells us we are one with the universe, but in this vast universe you can find the good and the bad, you can assimilate energy that serves your higher purpose, but also energy that drags you down.

During Neptune retrograde we need to be as awake as we can possibly be. Instead of putting the rose colored glasses on, simply put you glasses on, you want to see the world for what it really is. You can chose to lose yourself into the world of imagination to unleash the divine spirit inside you, and you also want to turn the TV off when you realize that what you are watching is someone else’s novel.

During Neptune retrograde, allow your ego take a break through myth, poetry, artistic cinema, and listen to the whisper of the dream. Allow memories and dreams to surface. Look for the truth that transcends the ego and remembers its source. And then take what has been revealed to you and bring it to the next level to fulfill your unique purpose. Not someone else’s.


Neptune Conjunct South Node – The Art Of Letting Go

Neptune and the South Node of the Moon are now exactly conjunct at 9° Pisces.

The Neptune South Node conjunction, which takes place just before Neptune turns direct, is a warning about the danger of falling back into the old ways, and in the same time an invitation to finally drop what is not working anymore. Let it go.

Everything that has been hidden and repressed is now coming up to the surface, to be acknowledged and healed, before we can finally let go and can move on.


Easier said than done. The South Node is our Karma, our point of comfort. We have the natural tendency to be reactive and allow previous patterns of experience to repeat themselves:  we choose the same type of partner each time, despite a track record on relationships ending for the same reasons, we keep on delaying giving up a bad habit, thinking that one final indulgence will be the last.

The temptation to stay there, victimize and think “hey, but that’s me, and I’m doing this because of that” is very strong. But don’t give up! The answer is always in the North Node – and the North Node is in Virgo, inviting us to get our act together, set tangible objectives, and make plans to reach them. We need to finally take responsibility for maintaining healthy routines in our everyday life.

For this, we need to leave the past where it belongs – in the past, with all its routines and comforts.  We need to LET GO. Mercury and Saturn are in square to Neptune / the Nodes, helping us in the process of releasing the old patterns.

What do you need to let go of? What thoughts, habits and attachments keep you stuck and create unnecessary stress in your life?

Here are three exercises you can try to support you in the process:

The “Neptune” exercise

Take a pen and two pieces of paper.

Can you think of a metaphor for your past? Draw on the first sheet of paper the image that comes to your mind. After you finish, close your eyes and visualize your future. Can you think of a metaphor for your life tomorrow? Now open your eyes and draw it on the second sheet of paper.

Your past is the South Node, and your future is the North Node – look at the two drawings to get any clues. What can you start doing tomorrow, to bring you closer to your North Node?

The “Mercury / Saturn” exercise

Write down three things that you are holding on to that are no longer serving you.

  1. I am holding on to_________________________________________
  2. I am holding on to_________________________________________
  3. I am holding on to_________________________________________

Pick one of these three things, and make a plan to let it go.

The “Nodes” exercise

Take a mirror – hold it into your dominant hand. Look into the mirror. Hold your gaze for at least 2 minutes. What do you see? How do you feel? What thoughts, feelings, memories, come to you? Now move the mirror in your non-dominant hand and look again. What do you see? How do you feel now?

A Hundred Floors Above Us, In The Tower Of Song – R.I.P. Leonard Cohen

Rest in peace Leonard, a hundred floors above us, in the tower of song.


Leonard dies only few months after his muse Marianne Ihlen, the subject of his song “So Long Marianne” died at the age of 81. Cohen’s farewell letter to Marianne was read at her funeral, stating that “our bodies are falling apart and I think I will follow you very soon. Know that I am so close behind you that if you stretch out your hand, I think you can reach mine.”

Just last month he told in an interview he was not afraid of death, and the lyrics of the first song on his latest album featured the words “I’m ready, my Lord”

Although Leonard is no longer with us, his music and poetry will always stay in our hearts. We will be speaking to us sweetly from a window in the tower of song. Hallelujah.

One thing struck me when I looked at his astrological chart. His Venus – the planet of love and beauty –  is in perfect conjunction with Neptune, the planet of higher love, spirituality, and mysticism, in the humble and service oriented sign of Virgo in his 12th house. He was the ultimate artist.

Leonard Cohen – The Tower of Song

“Well, my friends are gone and my hair is grey
I ache in the places where I used to play
And I’m crazy for love but I’m not coming’ on.
I’m just paying’ my rent every day in the Tower of Song

I said to Hank Williams “How lonely does it get?”
Hank Williams hasn’t answered yet
But I hear him coughing all night long
Oh, a hundred floors above me in the Tower of Song

I was born like this, I had no choice
I was born with the gift of a golden voice
And twenty-seven angels from the Great Beyond,
They tied me to this table right here in the Tower of Song

So you can stick your little pins in that voodoo doll
I’m very sorry, baby, it doesn’t look like me at all
I’m standing’ by the window where the light is strong
Ah, they don’t let a woman kill you, not in the Tower of Song

Now, you can say that I’ve grown bitter but of this you may be sure:
The rich have got their channels in the bedrooms of the poor
And there’s a mighty Judgement coming’ but I may be wrong
You see, I hear these funny voices in the Tower of Song

I see you standing’ on the other side
I don’t know how the river got so wide
I loved you, baby, way back when…
And all the bridges are burning’ that we might’ve crossed
But I feel so close to everything that we lost
We’ll never, we’ll never have to lose it again.

Now, I bid you farewell, I don’t know when I’ll be back
They’re moving’ us tomorrow to the tower down the track
But you’ll be hearing’ from me, baby, long after I’m gone
I’ll be speaking’ to you sweetly from a window in the Tower of Song.

Yeah, my friends are gone and my hair is grey
I ache in the places where I used to play
And I’m crazy for love but I’m not coming’ on.
I’m just paying’ my rent everyday in the Tower of Song”